Decision made

Memories from a dark time..

I was going to write a very extensive message, but at the moment I was sending it, I deleted it. I wanted to tell you how much I miss you, how much I like you, how much I enjoy being around you. But then I thought to myself, what good will it do to myself telling you all this. From the very basic, I can see that you are not into being with someone at this moment. From my side, I'm almost reaching the desperation stage, but, that's the reason why I deleted my message. I refuse to become desperate. I will not be desperate for it anymore, I used to be a very mellow person, now I've changed and do not know the reason why. And that's the reason why I'm writing you this.